I know its so fucking stupid to care about. Im going to look back and go "why the hell did i cry over that". but right now it doesnt matter what i'll do later. Leave his stupid fucking age OUT OF THIS! why dont you even care to meet him!? He's a good person! He's NOT going to rape me, he's NOT going to hurt me. Why can't you trust me to choose good people. Its not my fault I get along wtih people older than me, not my fault i think most people in my area my age are stupid! Maybe i ought to just lower my intelligence and my maturity to be just like them. Then maybe you'd be more lenient on me. That makes sense. maybe i should be one of those teenagers who sneaks out of the house and has sex with random guys. Hm, do you want a slut for a daughter? I could be a lot fucking worse. You dont realize that im a pretty damn good daughter. Im not stupid, im not slutty, im not a bitch, im not gay, im not athiest, im not a bad person. Just meet him. have an honest opinion instead of a fucking stereotype. Thats all i ask. You dont have to like him, just give him a chance, despite his age. You dont realize that by not trusting my decisions that i think you're calling me stupid. I havent' done anything to NOT have your trust. Its not my fault you cant trust other people. Are you completely paranoid? Its not my fault you dont go out and make friends of your own. Just because you don't go out, i cant? (yes, you said that) Its summer!! I might understand if school were in session and i was hounded by work, band, and homework, but its summer! Let me have fun! FUN, not danger. Im not asking to skydive or go to nicaragua. I want to go out wtih people. Today i asked if i could go out and have lunch with a bunch of people. you said "no, i dont want you going out with an 18 year old". yes he was included in the bunch but for gods' sakes, its not like im going to go suck his face in the backseat of a car simply because we're together!! Gods this is so fucking hopeless. i might as well just tell him that i can't see him anymore. But i like him way too much. Way too damn much. Gods i like him so much. I need to stop crying. My throat and eyes hurt. He says i shouldn't cry because then he couldnt see my pretty eyes. ;_; i cant stop crying. Please please nobody lecture me. i dont want to be lectured. my parents have taken to doing that every night recently. I really need to stop crying.